Dissapointment

I finally get my laptop. It costs my parents about like RM2.3k. I will post the picture of my laptop when I really got the mood. Now I still waiting for my friend to come to the library to find some books. We need those book for the TITAS project. TITAS is some sort like learning Sejarah over again. But it will emphasis on those civilization(tamadun-tamadun), Tamadun Melayu, and those Islamic related topics.

I finished my first modul last week. Dun ask me about the result, coz the result is not yet out. I am a little bit worry about it. The passing mark is 65, and I am not so sure that I am able to pass that paper. And because of those outing on the weekends, I have left out quite a lot. I have not yet wash my clothes, I have not yet study on the lecture notes, I have not finish the decoration for the class, and now I am busy blogging. Will start studying after the class.

Tell you something about one of my friend. He is a very nice guy, he never tell lies, and he is someone who is very religious. However, last few days ago, I called him a bluffer. We were joking around. He get mad and walk off. Until now, he still angry with a few of us. I explained to him that it is a joke, don't take it so serious. He seems like understand, but he said that he can't just forgive us. Sometimes words really can hurt a person very deeply although is just a joke. Time will dilute everything. Hope he will forgive us in the nearest future.

Tiredq

Tired and boring... Just dun have the will to talk to people or play with people. Maybe due to the exam on tomorrow... I will be having my exam on tomorow. And guess what? I had not been studying finish all the lecture notes. There are tonnes of things that I had not study yet. But I will try my very hard to finish as much as I can on today. Gambateh Yong!!!

And my friend, Indini Jones going to present. Wish him good luck. Good luck to my group 1 and 2 also.

Countdown ~.~

4 more days and I will be most probably doomed... Oops, no, I should be thinking positively. This Friday will be my exam day, not a real exam actually, is just a quiz for the first modul. It will testing us on the ethnics, the 10 golden rules, the code of profession, Decleration of Geneva, and etc... I am a little bit uneasy this morning because I have been sleeping late since yesterday. I slept at 1 in the morning, having insomnia at the same time. And I have to wake up 6.30 in the morning. And the worst part is when I get to school, there is actually a small quiz for medical terminology... Guess what is my score!!! I get only 6 out of 11 questions while others get more than that. I am a little bit frustrated too coz I have been studying days for this things... I felt that its a little bit unfair. This is my first test and I did it so badly. Maybe I really have to rearrange my style of studying. I hate this shit of thing happen to me.... I hate it, I hate it, I just want to keep on ranting... Ok, stop ranting now, I should appreciate it instead. It's a test from the God that I should be humble and start studying more harder. I will try my very best to overcome all these boulders.

Ooo ya, I am in the SPU(Sekolah Perubatan Unit) computer lab. My classmates were sitting beside me, Kasman and Asnawi. Kasman is just so adorable.. Hehe.. Our Asnawi will be our MC for this coming debating session, wish him all the best and good luck. Do not mess up with the goverment and opposition again... And my roommate, Jian Sheng just went to toilet... He is busy updating his antivirus software. He bought the laptop for RM3300 but it turns up to be a big turn down. Hope he will get back his normal speeed after updating those softwares..

And Last but not least, let us sing a birthday song to my 3 dearest classmate, Wei Jinn , Duncston, and One more(I forgotten who already).... Happy birthday to you, you are born in the zoo, lalalalalala...... Happy Birthday to You three!!

AFTERMATH

Yesterday, the 5 minutes presentation was a succesful one. ALthough my group did'nt get the highest mark for the presentation(Group 4 deserved it), I laughed throughout the presentation. I am the speaker for my group. Throughout the presentation, the class was in havoc, they were keep on laughing. They claimedn it to be the best presentation for the day. I have been receiving compliments since yesterday till this morning. I supposed to be happy about that, however sometimes, I might be too anxious. I am worried about the next presentation. They have set such a expectation from me in the next presentation, I scared that I might do it very badly. I always try not to think negatively, but dunno why I always get negative thinking recently. While I was studying, the other side of me will be telling me that I wont be sucessful in memorizing those facts and I will fail my exam. When I was about to enter a happy state, it will revert back to normal again. Just dunno why my brain willl actually supress my feeling to become happy, keep on telling me not to be so happy. Maybe this is what we called dual personalities, or intrapersonnel conflict.. I just hate those feelings although it does'nt really exist. I will be buying my laptop later in the end of July.

Congratz to those who get good result in their MUET especially Jun Xin and Wen Ching for getting Band 5 in MUET. You all made St. David proud!!!

Blogging

I am now in the discussion room... All of them have leave the room already, out for lunch. And I am the only one inside this room. I am actually supposed to read my Iban traditional medicine note for the 3pm presentation later. But since Peter leave his laptop here, so I will just use it to browse through nets to find some relevant info on that topic. In the mean time I will be reading manga as well. Hehe... I am so nervous because I am going to present it solo. This is the ever first time I speak in front of the class since the day I enter medic school. It has not be a problem for me to speak in front of the class during matriculation but just don't know why I am so nervous now. Ahh, stop blogging for now.. I will continue my reading on that topic. Forget to tell you ALL something, we had a orientation for medical student on last Saturday. Guess what? Our group 1, the bombastic group won the 2nd placing. Too sad that I cant show you the prizes now. You just imagine there are tonnes of junk food inside the hamper. And I met with Qing Chi, which is Qing Quan's sister. What an unexpected event.. She is my senior, a 4th year medical student going to graduate next year. She was even in the dean list, which means cpga 3.8 above if not mistaken. I wish I was her. There were also one more ex st davidians here but I forgotten his name already. I will try to meet him up.

The end of week

Yes, today is Friday. Finally a tme for me to take breath after the hectic life of a medic student. I have to struggle through the weekend to study all the notes given by the lectures. One Modul is already like one semester of notes in matriculation. I am in library now. Just now I met with one friend which is the first friend I get to know in this school. However, I noticed that he turn so 'dingin' towards me. Friendship is just so brittle. Maybe the bond isn't there yet.

I am gonna spend tonnes and tonnes of money for my stethoscope, medical books, lab coat, food, drinks, laptop, and many more. My friend even thought of buying a motorcycle. And I gonna pay for the petrol if he does get one. Then I not need to wake up so early to wait for the bus. It would lead to a more convenient lifestyle. Isn't it great if I can ride on my own.....

Yesterday, we have class on history taking. One of the most important skill is attentive listening. I think I would have to sharpen my skill on it. Listening to my patients, and take down every single important details about my patient, and file them up. Me and Indini Jones takes turn to become the doctor and patient. My skill aren't that good yet. I need to have more exercise. This is because when the patient talking too fast, the doctor also write very fast, then it ended up nothing. Coz I can't read my own word. I finally understand why layman like us just simply can't understand doctor writing..

Its good to be Friday. Class only for a few hours unlike the other weekdays. However, my prof once said, holiday isn't holiday again for medic student. Holiday is all about work and study. Holy.... I wanted to play basketball with my other coursemate, I want to go 1Borneo and play Dota with them but I just can't make it. Sorry my friends...

Day 2 of a medical student

Now I am in the Megalab of the school library. It consists of 500 computers in this area. I have been survived through the MSM, Minggu Suai Mesra. I met a few friends. They were just like my buddies. I met Chong which is also from KMM and most importantly he's from Malacca. However, I am in the medic field. So I will separate with my two other friend, Hi and Derrick. It's so fun to be around with them. We went to 1 Borneo together, play together, and do other stuff together. Good times just flies faster than others. Now, I have to attend classes from morning 8 until 5 in the evening. There are only about 2 hour break interval. The life is so hectic. Now, I and another coursemate, Wei Jun is in charge of the interview stuff. We going to ask people's opinion about the Chinese and Indian medicine. It gonna be a hard time. And plus with those new medical terminologies.. I gonna exhausted this time. But my aim is still clear, I going to pass those freaking hard exam and become a specialist. I just would not give up.

Mixing around with coursemate seems to be a little be hard. Coz most of them get to know each other already since most of them were from Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan. Some of them even got their penang gang, study gang, and all sorts of gangs. So, it's almost impossible to get to know all of them since they are 90++ of them. This is the biggest class in the history of UMS medical school.

UMS is indeed a beautiful place with its unique landscape. They have the crystal clear sea, nice mountains, fresh airs, big compound, Dewan Counsellor which claim to be the biggest one in Malaysia. I will stop blogging for a moment before I really get my laptop.

5 years of medic life......... Interesting.